When you’re waiting for a long time..

..and then this.

A silent tear ran through.

A winceful memory passed by.

Moments like this you yearn to hold onto something.

Or someone.

The music is from Taufik Batisah and it’s called ‘Usah Lepaskan’.

It means, don’t let go.


Sky’s The Limit

I’m embarking on a few clean slates.

It’s been for the past few months now and I’m training myself to work really hard to make things work.

You know how you’re trying really hard to achieve greatness that only you seem to see the path that you’re on, while external forces moan and can never understand nor support your cause?

Well, if your big break has yet to arrive, don’t give up and keep on moving.

So I Came across this 2012 video featuring the song of Taufik Batisah and Rui En, and it felt apt.


Oh, and Merry Christmas & Happy Holidays to you and family.

Need Your Love – The Temper Trap

Now some of you might see this music video and think that it’s just another music video.

And then there are some of us that sees this music video and sees even more..

.. wax in.. wax out.. wax in.. wax out..

The Karate Kid lives in every one of us!


I’m in love with Iris.


Her new blue guitar.

My sis got herself a pretty, blue, wooden guitar last Friday, after I took her to a guitar place earlier in the week, wherer she spent the late evening with me at the office.

Why was she at the office?

Oh, because it seems that having a big brother, whoose company is expanding and looking for new designers, means that you have first priority in getting that position~

And also, she was ‘surveying’ the new workplace — or was it the new workplace ‘surveying’ her?

Lucky her~

I can’t remember who, but someone once told me (or was it that I read somewhere???) that in life (especially careers), it’s not about what you know, but about who you know that gets you advantage.

Back to the guitar now.

Do you know what it tells me about her, after she’d gotten that pretty, blue guitar?

It means that finally, my Sis is showing signs of decisiveness, and I think this has been a very crucial characteristic that’s been missing from her, but with this guitar, I’m so happy that she ‘took it and went’ with it.

‘Take it. And go.’ — Famous words of Canadian/Indian comedian, Russell Peters, and check out one of his classics “Somebody gonna get a hurt real bad!”!

Alright, back to the guitar again.

She’s been chirping at me to teach her to play the stringed instruments for as long as I’ve known her, and for as long as she’s known me, I’ve not done so.

Perhaps with this latest ‘decisiveness’ episide, I think I might just reward her with a quick introductory lesson in guitar handling eh?

With the added impetus of me missing my guitar playing days, I think I might just finally sit down with her and get her to learn some tunes.

In any case, I think that making music, be it simply strumming the guitar or mastering an album, is a good way to express yourself, where at the same time you release that little bit of tension or stress in you.

For as long as I know, everytime I feel down or a little sad, I do tend to reach for that rusty, trusty old guitar of mine and play a chord or two, at the same time coming up with horribly rhymed verses.

Oh, I’m not that awesome a guitar player, but I do know how to put a tune or two, but just like any other motor skills, one can only get better with practice.

I hope my Sis will get herself busy with learning and dedicating herself into the safekeeping of her new guitar and her tunes, and then who knows, maybe we might be seeing a new Singapore Idol to come?

Wishful thinking, perhaps, but nothing wrong with aiming for more rights?

Does this hot 17yr old girl look familiar to all of you?

Some girls grow perpendicular to gravity, or towards the gravity, when they age but this girl just doesn’t seem to grow eh?

What the hell~

Now, 27year, Avril still looks the same to me when I first took a listening to her Let Go album on my CD Player.

My what? Yes, a portable cd player, also known as the discman, but these days it’s just dead man.

I wonder if kids these days even knew what a walkman was?

But it’s 2011 now and who really cares about walkmans or discmans right?

If you don’t aim for change, then you’ll never change, and sometimes change is for the better.

Oh what the hell~

Unintended Hiatus – Part I

An unintended hiatus that I’m back from, but it’s really just me unable to find words.

Funny how you keep writing all these years and yet words slip like a worn out, old shoe on a rainy day.

You just can’t run with ’em.

Thankfully there are songs that says it all, like Sum 41’s Pieces:

I tried to be perfect, but it just wasn’t worth it.. nothing could ever be so wrong.
It never gets easy.. I guess I knew that all along.
(More lyrics – Listen to MP3)

And you’ve sincerely tried.

And you’ve sincerely tried.

And for when you know you’ve sincerely tried and gotten misunderstood, then there’s Marinas Trench’s Say Anything, live version. Raw emotions.

I never took you for a trip but sometimes.. I don’t know what you want.
I can take it if you need to take this.. out on someone.
(More lyrics – Listen to MP3)

And you breathe again.

And you breathe again.

And for when it hurts you to stay and kills you to leave, there’s Sara Bareilles’ Breathe Again, which makes me sober all over.

Still I’m searching for something.. Out of breathe I am left hoping someday.
I’ll breathe again.. I’ll breathe again.
(More lyricsListen to MP3)

No pain no gain huh?

Marianas Trench: Masterpiece Theatre review.

Have you heard of Marianas Trench?

Well I stumbled upon them while I was stumbling upon Kristyn’s blog, Pretty Missile, and I sort of enjoyed the preview I got there.

Long story short, I bought their album, was tremendously impressed — after a long while of stale melodies and riffs — and thought that I could recommend you a listen to the album ‘Masterpiece Theatre’.

Here we go..

Full of Acapella verse and goofy, lyrically majestic and musically refreshing — what’s not to like about Canada-based Marianas Trench, especially when their music videos might fool you into thinking that it was a mentos commercial (and not that their songs wouldn’t complement such commercials though~)?

From the contemporary catchy ‘All To Myself’ to the soothingly smooth ‘Beside You’ to the emotional emphatic explosive endearment of ‘Lover Dearest’, a song that derived from a letter written to a drug addiction.

That the latter song (full lyrics here)is written by Josh Ramsay, lead vocals, while he was in rehab makes it all the more compelling, and as you breathe in his honest confessions of “..my tongues turnin’ black, but I’ll take you back, your still the best more or less..” and “..it hurts me to say that it hurts me to stay
and it might be all right if you go..
“, it all builds up into an emphatic crescendo of an ending with “..i think that the bitter in you and the quitter in me is the bitter in you and quitter in me..“.

That ‘Lover Dearest’ is just one of the many listenable, emotionally charged and tight lyrics with teasing riffs, justifies this denouement that is their follow-up album, aptly titled ‘Masterpiece Theatre’, to ‘Fix Me’.

The beautifully arranged and directed music vid, ‘Beside You’.

Worth listening from the album includes ‘Perfect”, a raunchy riffy song for any day and the 3 parts ‘Masterpiece Theatre’, which is experimentally musically yet ably sounding complete, rich and exquisitely executed.

You’ve got to appreciate the candid outlook of the guys mixed with sober experimentation of their sound, and which band do you know of that holds a contest for anyone to grab the chance of doing a duet with them in a performance of their next song?

What a delicately painful-yet-oh-so-passionate duet ‘Good to you’ is indeed (with Kate Voele on the track), that reminds you of the moment where you’re caught in between something you’re-not-but-willing-to-be and the real you.

And if the more upbeat tracks like ‘Sing Sing’ and ‘Celebrity Status’ don’t make you feel like giving your bums a good workout, then perhaps I might’ve erred when I claim them as THE next big band to break out into mainstream this year.

Recommend for tasteful audiophiles everywhere, and even if you’re not one of them, I’d guarantee that you’d still be able to appreciate the album.

Oh, did you know that ‘Mariana Trench’ is actually the world’s deepest ocean trench? Well, now you do.

And Marianas Trench’s music is deep indeed.

Brick, Boring Brick — Paramore’s Hayley Williams dissociates

It’s been a long while since I’ve heard of Paramore and a llittle bit or maybe more, since Riot! in 2007, the band takes on darker foreboding themes.

Brick, Boring Brick talks of dissociation when face with life’s problems and somehow it feels close to me.

Like how when faced with a conflict/trauma, I choose to dissociate personally from the problem and instead work towards the solution, it may seem well and smart, but when you think that dissociation are what Military and Illuminati employs in their bigger Agenda, it gets creepy.

Dissociation has slowly ingrained itself in my veins ever since the setback of a beloved’s passing, and perhaps at the sudden and untimely manner of her passing traumatised me so much that I was vindicated whenever I dissociate.

Is that good?

Now, I feel myself disconnected to problems and troubles, and instead of feeling emotionally drained whenever conflict arises, I’m able to dissociate and move on, or promptly come up with a solution.

Is that good?

Do I not care? Do I not bother? Do I not even feel a pinch?

Is that good?

Actually I do, I care, I bother and I certainly feel the pinch but I won’t brood over it or forget to put cat food in a bowl because of it.

I get up and get things done. I get going and get into action

Time is extremely precious.

Paramore in concertIn this music video, Hayley Williams (Paramore’s lead vocal/keyboardist) faces conflicts and dissociates by transforming her mind into a child that wanders into a castle where bundles of happy thoughts awaits her.

But, as we later finds out, the castle’s smiling portraits and characters turn sinister, sooner or later, and there’s only so much that the child can run away from. In the end she gets buried alive.

Before anyone says what an abusive video, the child burying graphics can actually be taken as the burying of Hayley’s ‘child’ persona that runs away from problems — that she’s burying ‘her’ because she’s facing up to the conflicts and not running away anymore.

Because sometimes, running away won’t solve anything and you’ve got to ‘bury that child’ and face reality.

Dark, dreamy, foreboding video concept, but interesting, thought-provoking and challenging as hell.

Paramore‘s work never fails to tickle my toughts.